Failed mission of catching up to feel good

I'm on vacation and it looks to me that I'm trying really hard to succeed in trading really quick so I can feel good about myself. I'm tying to catch up or just to have some success to have god feeling about it. Well it's not going that way. I see now that I shouldn't be trading at all because instead of good feelings I get more and more frustration.
Well it's fair enough to feel frustrated over trading and to feel it intensified after years of trading and nothing to show for it.
-52 pips